...it's so obvious, to me at least, that everyone has taken me the wrong way. And you know, I really don't care...I'm just worried, why do you guys care so much? Maybe it's best to leave that unanswered...
I've said all that I could, but people here just keep giving me more credit than I deserve. You know, I really don't have to be here at all...and seeing that how many people think negatively of me, and few even hate me...I guess there's no point for me to stay here. I'll only serve as an accelerator to this place's ill-fated destiny.
I sorta got a hint months ago, that I wasn't very adored, but I honestly didn't know it was this serious. I usually looked at this as people on the net who try to get a long in a digital world. Obviously, I'm wrong. The thing I don't understand, again, is
why it's this serious. I really do not recall an instance where I truly hurt somebody, or just went on a complete blind rage onto him or her. In fact, I apologize a lot and praise a lot via PM and AIM, and the few that I had the honor to really talk to around here know that: they know how generous, thankful, and selfless I can be. No matter what, I just can't imagine a reason that is the cause for all this needless commotion. Whatever you think of me, maybe you should take another perspective at this "issue" and truly look at
why *you* feel so strongly about it...did I ruin anyone's life in here? Did I steal anyone's girlfriend? Did I break a relationship or something? What...? What was it that started all of this? You can't tell me a silly thread of mine triggered all of this...that's just too obscure for me to understand. Yet again, maybe I'm *not* supposed to understand this, and just take it as it is...
In any event, I wouldn't say I'm leaving, I'm not...not really. I'll just be lurking around here much less, until eventually I'll fade out of your sight...which is the best thing as I see it. The first day of my summer break starts this Friday, I don't have plans right away, but I'm going to Montreal, Canada...for few weeks, and then I'm taking summer school. I'll be busy, and I'll be sure not to make time to come here.
And I'm only doing this for the people who have honestly taken me the wrong way (TomB, Yellowjacket, Apollo...etc...)...I would apologize, but I think my kindly-fading away would serve a better apology, do you not think?
Who knows, maybe this website would really be up and running in a year or something...maybe I'll just take a silent glimpse to see what's up?
I guess I'm out of words...or frankly, I'm speechless at this point.
I'll see you guys whenever.
I just hope I didn't sound "defensive," only for you Gizmo...