Thank you guys. Actually, to be open and honest about it, I was in a very moody mode, even depressed you might say, for the whole day; I couldn't eat, I couldn't drink, and I certainly couldn't talk to anyone...I just wanted to be alone. Distance, and busy-ness, is nothing easy to handle when on my mind I had one person, and being alone made me focus all my mind, even involuntarily, on that person; didn't get anything done because I didn't want to move, or talk, or think. My god. I honestly can say I know what love feels like...<sigh, in dreamlike way>...and although we're supposed to meet again this Friday, it feels like an eternity away...
...I'm in school...supposed to be taking an exam today, and then I have a 3 hour discussion class on Heidegger's
Being and Time...I am so not ready...
...my 21st birthday, although I decided to spend it in complete loneliness, has been the most psychically intoxicating and mind-blowing, mind-numbing, pleasingly painful of all birthdays...
<sigh, I could just sigh all day>
train, my "legal age" was 17.
