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Riva Iron-Grip
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here is my poetry. i write cuz of depression, and i fite myself in my mind. this is the product of my mental battle. enjoy
A dead soul’s last words
1. Darkness imprisoning me
How can I see?
Darkness has taken my eyes
Taken my mind
Taken my soul
And taken my heart
Light help me
Feel the silence about to break
I'm about to walk away so I can breathe
Lies
For you I'm awake
Because of you I'm alive
I told you I'm awake, swallowing your lies
Darkness take me away
Darkness kill what is left of me
Swallow my essence of life, before it is diminished by hate
God is my slave
2. My mind is a dark room
Only mysteries and myths fill its halls
But what is in the middle?
I am
Patiently waiting for someone to take me away
Why?
Because utter solitude destroys my mind
Wreaking havoc on the body
And creating a thunderstorm of emotion
One minute calm, the next howling and pounding
My mind desperately awaits to meet those that can understand
Until that day, I am alone
Only to be broken by those around me
And to be trampled by those who pretend to care
But what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger
3. This world surrounds me, shoving things into my head
Only to dance with my mentality
When I push back, society releases its dogs
Just because I didn't believe
This surreal world is unreal
No one can understand the pains I've endured
No one cares to be embraced
When someone does, they help until they can't take anymore
When I talk to people, they act like everything is perfect
When, in reality, it is exactly the opposite
I'm in a crowded room, everyone is talking to me
But no one will touch me
Why should they?
Am I not as demented as they think that I am?
I'm all alone
I cannot stay in this world for much longer
If I do, I'll suffocate
Can't someone burst my bubble of unprotection?
Or come in with me?
4. When I hear your voice, I want to cry
You are the only one that can make me happy
When we say good-bye, part of me wants to die
I wish that I could be there for you
But I can't
Sometimes, I wish that you could hold me
And I'd fall asleep in your arms
Just knowing that you're there for me, makes me more secure in this world
My dreams are big enough for two
All I want in the world is you
I never want to drift apart
You're the only one with a key to my heart
5. When you tell me bye, I die
I cannot stop thinking about you
My thoughts belong to you
My only wish is to be with you
No one else can evoke these feelings
You are the missing link in my chain of sanity
Without you I would cry my life away
Please, stay with me forever
6. Shadows encircle me
Clouding my vision
Distorting my thoughts
Hate, is my master
Pain, is my ally
Sleep, is my only escape
Blood, is my weapon
Death, is my life gate
Evil, is my father
Satan, is my mentor
Hell, is my sanctuary
Love, is my enemy
Chess, is my game
I make thunder tame
Kings, are my pawns
Pogo the clown is dead
His soul is trying to get in my head
7. Shadows in-prison me
Holding my mind in place
Creating a storm within my mind
This is because of YOU!
Why have you forsaken me?
Forsaken in your eyes
Forsaken in your heart
Forsaken in your soul
Is it because of the way I act?
Or the way I talk?
Or is it my self-righteous suicide?
I cry when angels deserve to die
Put on some makeup
‘Cuz you wanted to
WAKEUP
Because I wanted you to
I’m bound for eternity
Because of you
Why have you forsaken me?
This is why I talk about self-righteous suicide
8. Death blooms
When you look in my eyes
Does it scare you?
Death fuels my life
Hate pumps my heart
Fear fills my veins
Evil moves my muscles
Satan teaches me your faults
I use them to break you
When you fall, I push you harder
Do you like how it feels?
Grovel before me
Kiss my feet
Or I will torment your soul for an eternity
9. The flag was raised, white in hue
The haze from battle distorted the view
So long it was since peace did reign
Ideals and naivete lie strewn and slain
The victor decided, the spoils received
The leader once certain only deceived
The figures tallied of lives now lost
The death of soul an exacted cost
10. Angels are in chains
When you invoke my wrath
This war will never end
Death is my life
Yet death is your end
The fire of my hate burns your soul
Soon, you will be mine
11. Knowledge is power
I know every fault of every situation
Your bravery
Shall be my sermon
Bow to me
Or feel my tendrils of despair
As they murder your soul and being
Feel eternal pain
Feel MY pain,
As I caress your body
Feel my mind,
As I smite your consciousness
Kneel to your king,
The Angel of Death
For you will feel NO mercy shall you resist
12. The love of my life has eyes of blue
Her love is like an arrow, straight and true
Whenever we part, my heart shatters like glass
It all happens in a flash
My veins pump adrenaline at the sound of her voice
To dance for life is her choice
I would give anything to sit with her
I would eat fire to dance with her
13. Her hands caress the threads of my life
She is my meaning for life
Her hands clap the beat of my heart
Her lips are sweet and tart
Her anger is my vengeance
My hate is her shield
She blooms harmony where she steps
I bloom death where I step
She is the chink in my armor
Her love is my weakness
When tears drop from my eyes
She soaks them up in her shawl of ecstasy
To later wipe my face clean of blood
14. As the battle wakes
An angel walks among the dead
Gently kneeling to give sorrow to each man
As the soldiers lay eyes upon the young angel
They lay down their weapons
Slowly kneeling to praise the angel of death
She walks to me
Raising her icy glaze to stare at my burnished eyes
A grim grin spreads along her lips
She raises her hand, and a cold black sword solidifies in her hand
I come to one knee, lowering my head in defeat
As her sword comes to my shoulder, I close my eyes
Death is near
The angel of death brings the sword up, and touches my other shoulder
Raise my servant, she says
As I raise, she hands the sword to me hilt first
You are now my word of prophecy, and my fist of justice
15. My veins are filled with the tainted oil of hell
My mind was wrought from the heart of Satan's soul
His essence fills my thoughts
God, is my opposition
Love, is our war
Hate, is my weapon
My love for one woman used against me
My closest friends are my sworn enemies
Life is her sanctuary
Death is my place of power
How can love survive with a war at hand?
16. The search for the "Understander" draws to a close
Day by day, it begins to thicken
Will it solidify?
Why would she want to understand me?
What is she really after?
Every second these questions rack my mind
Millions try, but never succeed
Will this be the exception?
Could she be the missing link in the chain of my soul?
Hours pass like seconds in the company of her being
17. The skull is broken
The curse is lifted
Is it permanent?
Or shall the skull reform
Only time can tell
Only love can break the pieces of hate into bits of dust
My life is on contract
18. Future has no road
Hate has taken away goals
Family has distorted mental input
Love has adjusted the output
Torment has broken the mirror
War has lifted the soul
Friends have killed the heart
Death has given an offer
I have accepted death
19. Without her, my life is through
If only she would tell me our love is true
Her eyes are filled with lust
My emotions break like crust
Do we have any trust?
She stabs me in the back
Her heart is cold and black
20. Shadows race from my fingertips
Slowly entwining the love of my life
My enemies are at the gates
My minions are being slaughtered
Love has but only a few seconds of life
We shall meet again
Death, is my birthplace
Hell, is my home
My love shall win but only once
My forked tongue is a whip
Slashing and biting
Engraving my mark upon your soul
Only the forgiveness of God shall release your soul
Plead
Perhaps mercy will reveal itself in the oddest places
Grovel
Mercy is not a right
21. Never be
Never see
But I see what I deserve
Never free
Never me
So I take the unforgiven
This fighting cannot win
This war cannot last
But I continue anyway
Black of day
White of night
We see by candlelight
Lay beside me
Will you be there when I’m gone?
Watch me as I go
Will you give the stone of love the last throw?
22. Another star clouds my vision
Blocking the angel walking my path
Our eyes connect
She’s my dream
Sad but true
23. You
You’re my pain
My everyday pain
You
You’re my cause
My cause for death
24. I’m your nightmare
The kind that you never share
The angel that makes you wash your hair
Make me real
Make it real
Bring me your testimony
Your execution commences
So close, no matter how far
Forever trusting
Trust I see
Never wanting to speak
Afraid of the crow’s beak
Pecking
Pecking your soul
Eating
Eating your eyes
Washing
Washing in your blood
Your blood
Your blood of sorrow
25. I have lost my will to live
Simply nothing left to give
Life seems to drift away
Getting farther everyday
There is nothing here for me
The need for death is to be
Emptiness is filling me
God just let me be
No one to save my soul
It’s too late
That’s right
Too late for repentance
Evil has run its course
Making my throat hoarse
The sweet taste of death is near
If only I could shed a tear
26. Tell me what I’ve done
Make my demons run
My mind is locked
Open it with the truth
Do you understand me?
I understand you
My heart lies under wicked skies
Your voice makes me cry
I’m sick and tired of standing alone
Can’t you be the one?
The moon shines on our souls
Our blood fills Satan’s bowls
The door is open
Shall we enter?
27. Gone insane
Hell’s bane
Cerberus is tame
Your eyes are filled with shame
God and Lucifer play an evil game
Death always gets fame
Live is vain
Our memories won’t remain
There is still tomorrow
28. Say yes
At least say hello
Your emotions are shallow
My life is tainted with tallow
Are you satisfied?
You think you’ll make me pacified
All the things you say
They’ll never make me pray
I’m still waiting
Waiting for my day
29. Do you hypnotize?
Do you have the strength to look into my eyes?
I make angels cry
I will never die
My mind is ever shy
You matter like a fly
Can’t you just die?
You’ll never be by my side
At least I can say that I tried
30. Suffocation is my memory
Never having a voice
Having to fight to live
Barely escaping with my life
Can’t close my eyes
Life ends in nightmares
Death rides a stallion
Hell is bringing a battalion
Freedom is not my right
It is your savior
31. Tempting is death
Brushing my soul with its sweetness
Caressing my heart with its hatred
Murmuring to my mind about its abuse
Destroying my body with its evil
Eating my being with its corruption
Selling my consciousness to the Devil
32. Throw the bodies to the floor
And the gates of paradise will open
Feel remorse
And you shall be defeated
Feel hatred run your veins
And you shall be victorious
Allow death to take your soul
And you shall be immortal
33. I embrace death
I enjoy pain
I deceive torture
I commiserate with the devil
I succumb to love
I twist hate
I procure holocaust
I defile life
I shred the threads of consciousness
I walk amongst the dead
I run through your dreams
34. Cradle sin
Push the pins deeper in
Cut the skin
Let the blood begin to run
It’ll be a while before we’re done
Feel the pain
Let it run its course
Bite your tongue
Let the sweet taste fill your mouth
Don’t look in the mirror
Your eyes are filled with fear
My cheeks are running with tears
Start the water
Wash away the dirt
Let your mind fill with my hurt
Your blood soaks my shirt
35. My eyes are distant and faint
Can you feel evil’s taint?
My soul is black and faded
Can you see me jaded?
My heart lies when I see you
Do you have any clue?
My trust in you has been twisted around
Can you keep my mind sound?
A dead soul’s last words
1. Darkness imprisoning me
How can I see?
Darkness has taken my eyes
Taken my mind
Taken my soul
And taken my heart
Light help me
Feel the silence about to break
I'm about to walk away so I can breathe
Lies
For you I'm awake
Because of you I'm alive
I told you I'm awake, swallowing your lies
Darkness take me away
Darkness kill what is left of me
Swallow my essence of life, before it is diminished by hate
God is my slave
2. My mind is a dark room
Only mysteries and myths fill its halls
But what is in the middle?
I am
Patiently waiting for someone to take me away
Why?
Because utter solitude destroys my mind
Wreaking havoc on the body
And creating a thunderstorm of emotion
One minute calm, the next howling and pounding
My mind desperately awaits to meet those that can understand
Until that day, I am alone
Only to be broken by those around me
And to be trampled by those who pretend to care
But what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger
3. This world surrounds me, shoving things into my head
Only to dance with my mentality
When I push back, society releases its dogs
Just because I didn't believe
This surreal world is unreal
No one can understand the pains I've endured
No one cares to be embraced
When someone does, they help until they can't take anymore
When I talk to people, they act like everything is perfect
When, in reality, it is exactly the opposite
I'm in a crowded room, everyone is talking to me
But no one will touch me
Why should they?
Am I not as demented as they think that I am?
I'm all alone
I cannot stay in this world for much longer
If I do, I'll suffocate
Can't someone burst my bubble of unprotection?
Or come in with me?
4. When I hear your voice, I want to cry
You are the only one that can make me happy
When we say good-bye, part of me wants to die
I wish that I could be there for you
But I can't
Sometimes, I wish that you could hold me
And I'd fall asleep in your arms
Just knowing that you're there for me, makes me more secure in this world
My dreams are big enough for two
All I want in the world is you
I never want to drift apart
You're the only one with a key to my heart
5. When you tell me bye, I die
I cannot stop thinking about you
My thoughts belong to you
My only wish is to be with you
No one else can evoke these feelings
You are the missing link in my chain of sanity
Without you I would cry my life away
Please, stay with me forever
6. Shadows encircle me
Clouding my vision
Distorting my thoughts
Hate, is my master
Pain, is my ally
Sleep, is my only escape
Blood, is my weapon
Death, is my life gate
Evil, is my father
Satan, is my mentor
Hell, is my sanctuary
Love, is my enemy
Chess, is my game
I make thunder tame
Kings, are my pawns
Pogo the clown is dead
His soul is trying to get in my head
7. Shadows in-prison me
Holding my mind in place
Creating a storm within my mind
This is because of YOU!
Why have you forsaken me?
Forsaken in your eyes
Forsaken in your heart
Forsaken in your soul
Is it because of the way I act?
Or the way I talk?
Or is it my self-righteous suicide?
I cry when angels deserve to die
Put on some makeup
‘Cuz you wanted to
WAKEUP
Because I wanted you to
I’m bound for eternity
Because of you
Why have you forsaken me?
This is why I talk about self-righteous suicide
8. Death blooms
When you look in my eyes
Does it scare you?
Death fuels my life
Hate pumps my heart
Fear fills my veins
Evil moves my muscles
Satan teaches me your faults
I use them to break you
When you fall, I push you harder
Do you like how it feels?
Grovel before me
Kiss my feet
Or I will torment your soul for an eternity
9. The flag was raised, white in hue
The haze from battle distorted the view
So long it was since peace did reign
Ideals and naivete lie strewn and slain
The victor decided, the spoils received
The leader once certain only deceived
The figures tallied of lives now lost
The death of soul an exacted cost
10. Angels are in chains
When you invoke my wrath
This war will never end
Death is my life
Yet death is your end
The fire of my hate burns your soul
Soon, you will be mine
11. Knowledge is power
I know every fault of every situation
Your bravery
Shall be my sermon
Bow to me
Or feel my tendrils of despair
As they murder your soul and being
Feel eternal pain
Feel MY pain,
As I caress your body
Feel my mind,
As I smite your consciousness
Kneel to your king,
The Angel of Death
For you will feel NO mercy shall you resist
12. The love of my life has eyes of blue
Her love is like an arrow, straight and true
Whenever we part, my heart shatters like glass
It all happens in a flash
My veins pump adrenaline at the sound of her voice
To dance for life is her choice
I would give anything to sit with her
I would eat fire to dance with her
13. Her hands caress the threads of my life
She is my meaning for life
Her hands clap the beat of my heart
Her lips are sweet and tart
Her anger is my vengeance
My hate is her shield
She blooms harmony where she steps
I bloom death where I step
She is the chink in my armor
Her love is my weakness
When tears drop from my eyes
She soaks them up in her shawl of ecstasy
To later wipe my face clean of blood
14. As the battle wakes
An angel walks among the dead
Gently kneeling to give sorrow to each man
As the soldiers lay eyes upon the young angel
They lay down their weapons
Slowly kneeling to praise the angel of death
She walks to me
Raising her icy glaze to stare at my burnished eyes
A grim grin spreads along her lips
She raises her hand, and a cold black sword solidifies in her hand
I come to one knee, lowering my head in defeat
As her sword comes to my shoulder, I close my eyes
Death is near
The angel of death brings the sword up, and touches my other shoulder
Raise my servant, she says
As I raise, she hands the sword to me hilt first
You are now my word of prophecy, and my fist of justice
15. My veins are filled with the tainted oil of hell
My mind was wrought from the heart of Satan's soul
His essence fills my thoughts
God, is my opposition
Love, is our war
Hate, is my weapon
My love for one woman used against me
My closest friends are my sworn enemies
Life is her sanctuary
Death is my place of power
How can love survive with a war at hand?
16. The search for the "Understander" draws to a close
Day by day, it begins to thicken
Will it solidify?
Why would she want to understand me?
What is she really after?
Every second these questions rack my mind
Millions try, but never succeed
Will this be the exception?
Could she be the missing link in the chain of my soul?
Hours pass like seconds in the company of her being
17. The skull is broken
The curse is lifted
Is it permanent?
Or shall the skull reform
Only time can tell
Only love can break the pieces of hate into bits of dust
My life is on contract
18. Future has no road
Hate has taken away goals
Family has distorted mental input
Love has adjusted the output
Torment has broken the mirror
War has lifted the soul
Friends have killed the heart
Death has given an offer
I have accepted death
19. Without her, my life is through
If only she would tell me our love is true
Her eyes are filled with lust
My emotions break like crust
Do we have any trust?
She stabs me in the back
Her heart is cold and black
20. Shadows race from my fingertips
Slowly entwining the love of my life
My enemies are at the gates
My minions are being slaughtered
Love has but only a few seconds of life
We shall meet again
Death, is my birthplace
Hell, is my home
My love shall win but only once
My forked tongue is a whip
Slashing and biting
Engraving my mark upon your soul
Only the forgiveness of God shall release your soul
Plead
Perhaps mercy will reveal itself in the oddest places
Grovel
Mercy is not a right
21. Never be
Never see
But I see what I deserve
Never free
Never me
So I take the unforgiven
This fighting cannot win
This war cannot last
But I continue anyway
Black of day
White of night
We see by candlelight
Lay beside me
Will you be there when I’m gone?
Watch me as I go
Will you give the stone of love the last throw?
22. Another star clouds my vision
Blocking the angel walking my path
Our eyes connect
She’s my dream
Sad but true
23. You
You’re my pain
My everyday pain
You
You’re my cause
My cause for death
24. I’m your nightmare
The kind that you never share
The angel that makes you wash your hair
Make me real
Make it real
Bring me your testimony
Your execution commences
So close, no matter how far
Forever trusting
Trust I see
Never wanting to speak
Afraid of the crow’s beak
Pecking
Pecking your soul
Eating
Eating your eyes
Washing
Washing in your blood
Your blood
Your blood of sorrow
25. I have lost my will to live
Simply nothing left to give
Life seems to drift away
Getting farther everyday
There is nothing here for me
The need for death is to be
Emptiness is filling me
God just let me be
No one to save my soul
It’s too late
That’s right
Too late for repentance
Evil has run its course
Making my throat hoarse
The sweet taste of death is near
If only I could shed a tear
26. Tell me what I’ve done
Make my demons run
My mind is locked
Open it with the truth
Do you understand me?
I understand you
My heart lies under wicked skies
Your voice makes me cry
I’m sick and tired of standing alone
Can’t you be the one?
The moon shines on our souls
Our blood fills Satan’s bowls
The door is open
Shall we enter?
27. Gone insane
Hell’s bane
Cerberus is tame
Your eyes are filled with shame
God and Lucifer play an evil game
Death always gets fame
Live is vain
Our memories won’t remain
There is still tomorrow
28. Say yes
At least say hello
Your emotions are shallow
My life is tainted with tallow
Are you satisfied?
You think you’ll make me pacified
All the things you say
They’ll never make me pray
I’m still waiting
Waiting for my day
29. Do you hypnotize?
Do you have the strength to look into my eyes?
I make angels cry
I will never die
My mind is ever shy
You matter like a fly
Can’t you just die?
You’ll never be by my side
At least I can say that I tried
30. Suffocation is my memory
Never having a voice
Having to fight to live
Barely escaping with my life
Can’t close my eyes
Life ends in nightmares
Death rides a stallion
Hell is bringing a battalion
Freedom is not my right
It is your savior
31. Tempting is death
Brushing my soul with its sweetness
Caressing my heart with its hatred
Murmuring to my mind about its abuse
Destroying my body with its evil
Eating my being with its corruption
Selling my consciousness to the Devil
32. Throw the bodies to the floor
And the gates of paradise will open
Feel remorse
And you shall be defeated
Feel hatred run your veins
And you shall be victorious
Allow death to take your soul
And you shall be immortal
33. I embrace death
I enjoy pain
I deceive torture
I commiserate with the devil
I succumb to love
I twist hate
I procure holocaust
I defile life
I shred the threads of consciousness
I walk amongst the dead
I run through your dreams
34. Cradle sin
Push the pins deeper in
Cut the skin
Let the blood begin to run
It’ll be a while before we’re done
Feel the pain
Let it run its course
Bite your tongue
Let the sweet taste fill your mouth
Don’t look in the mirror
Your eyes are filled with fear
My cheeks are running with tears
Start the water
Wash away the dirt
Let your mind fill with my hurt
Your blood soaks my shirt
35. My eyes are distant and faint
Can you feel evil’s taint?
My soul is black and faded
Can you see me jaded?
My heart lies when I see you
Do you have any clue?
My trust in you has been twisted around
Can you keep my mind sound?