... and the coffin opened slowly.
I quit playing Magic.
I had no one to play Magic with anymore so I gave it up, packed up my Chub Toads and Mox Diamonds (don't ask) and put my cards away in my closet with no intention of ever touching them again. And I didn't for almost a year.
I missed playing a lot. But it was more than that. I missed the 'Magic culture.' I missed Inquest magazine and staying up late with little glass bead Saprolings ballooned up to 50/50 creatures from a Coat of Arms. I missed multiplayer games and arguing about why Mahamoti Djinn is much better than Air Elemental (which it is). I missed dreaming about Moxes and trading and tourneys and the whole nine yards. Most of all, I missed the Casual Players Alliance. But there wasn't much I could do about it so I forced myself to move on.
I was finished with Magic and, honestly, was seriously considering selling my collection. I came so very close to shutting the door on one of the most influential parts of my life for the past five years. Then Child of Gaea, my old playtest buddy finally got ahold of me. We talked for a long time. I had given up cards, he hadn't.
I had not spoken to Child for many months. Neither of us was to blame, we had both moved around a lot. I really missed the guy. Listening to him tell me about what cards he had gotten made me stop to think about the old days.
I thought about the days on the Dojo (god rest ye, Dojo) and the beginnings of the CPA. I thought about all the good times I had with Child, trading and staying up late to check out the latest spoiler on MtGNews. I thought about everything I was missing out on and all of a sudden, it was back.
That feeling you get when you discover a really great combo or when you've just completed a set. I hadn't felt that way for a long time and I remembered how I used to get the feeling almost daily.
I missed it.
I needed it.
All of a sudden, I remembered what Magic used to be to me. It was more than a hobby, it was an a lifestyle. You, the CPA members, are more than just a group of people with the same hobby, you're an entire culture unto yourself. Think of the things you do in your day to day life that have been affected by Magic. Think of the way you spend your day. Think of how much of your time Magic takes up. Magic is not just a game. I could never think of it that way again.
I'm happy to say that I bought six packs of Planeshift today. I hadn't bought any cards since the Masques block and I have to tell you, it felt good. Really good.
It may take me awhile to get caught up to the rest of you, but for what it's worth, I have come back to Magic. I am proud to be a member of the community again.
"Thanks, Jaimie ..."